Still a child at heart

  • [Me]:I'm scared of people. :(
  • [Me]:I want to be by myself where no one can get angry with me. But I don't want to be alone. Contradictory desires.
  • [Me]:Thinking about that... makes sense if I still don't see myself as an adult capable of seeing myself as on an equal footing with other adults. Seems like my way of processing interactions with other people is "they are the beings with power. I have to appease them or they will get angry with me and hurt me, physically and or emotionally".