A Self-Care post

 
This is just to touch on some stuff I've mentioned earlier, or that's important to keep track of (but haven't much had the mindfulness for recently). Glasses: I did not want to get bespoke frames, in the end, from that guy on Etsy. The reason was I wouldn't be able to repair them later, without sending them back to him overseas and waiting potentially a long time. According to him, nobody else could even install the lenses in his frames. Even if this claim is true, and I have no especially strong doubts that it is, it would put me off buying the frames from him outright. A local business, http://spectacleshoppe.biz, seemed to be the only other practical solution. A little jaded at their claims of having even unusual sizes, I went ahead and explored their stock. With a bit of searching we found two pairs that would work, one of which fits very comfortably. It was expensive, but at least now we have some frames I can use as backups. Pretty well-done, though it cost a lot -- the last of my practical-acquisition sprees for a while. They don't take Medicaid, so I'll have to get the lenses done up elsewhere. Depression: All elements of self-care seem to be involved in treating my depression effectively. I suppose it is like a web, in a way -- no one strand holds the whole thing up, but they all play a part in making sure that collapses, when they do occur, are strictly local in scope. Have had time in abundance to reflect on this lately; there is much of it going on and my overall wellbeing has suffered of late. Have observed that much anxiety around expressing my problems here or journalling in a space where others can see it is derived from the need to explain. We don't trust all individuals with access to understand everything, or we feel our utterings without context are too cryptic and weird. So we try to make-presentable as a precondition for journalling at all. Don't trust that urge. Need to experiment with personal journal in offline form. Unsure whether it will help. Clothes: Placed another order with Decent Exposures, this time for some whole outfits suitable for the coming warmer weather. Some nervousness persists about whether we will get as much use out of them as we hope; perhaps that will always be a concern though. Regardless, we should have enough new things added to our wardrobe when it arrives to make presentation a little less slapdash and more deliberate. For now that is probably enough. Good things: We feel the need to keep this stuff a little close to our chest for right now. Sometimes to gush too freely is to lose our grip on the positive emotions associated with stuff -- as though by naming even the bright and pleasant spirits, we exorcise them. Suffice it to say we are feeling alright, at present, and in a better frame of mind about some stuff. Perhaps stoicism should be our goal. Out the other side of our mood lifting is a manic cycle...