Been sick the past few days, not a good way to finish my first week back. Been feeling generally awful, and messed up badly enough I haven't been able to think straight until just lately. That's a real shame, because I couldn't even use the time for reading or being creative.

Been a hectic couple of weeks period of time for me.

The past day has been a bit displeasing. Last night I was having frustration with Windows so decided to try avoiding that by switching back to Ubuntu as much as possible until I can get hold of a new computer. Hopefully that will be worth the trouble; used 1/6 of our available data for the month downloading updates. Some things are better. Ubuntu uses much less memory than Vista does, and being able to have both browser and documents open without so much strain makes for smoother job searching.

I was not going to make this post. I wanted to write something last Wednesday about a disappointing day, then added intention of covering the next day too, and the next, with various busyness meaning I did not feel able to write anything until just recently again. And by then I was not feeling in much of a mood to write anything, or seeing much point in talking about things that happened a week ago and were unimportant even then.

Last night I applied in the employ of the state government, which meant the application process included a page of optional diversity information to submit (gender, race, language and disability).

I felt very conflicted about that. On the one hand, I believe accurate information is important for providing support and shaping policy. On the other, despite those questions being marked as optional and not taken into consideration for assessing my application, so far as I could see answering honestly would only either hurt or not help my chances.

Perhaps I should apologise for the recent silence. Just came off eight days of reading tvtropes. Seems to happen about once a year.

Anyway, still alive, still managing this self-care thing. Am finding this somewhat encouraging - if I had my own little place I feel a bit more confident I would be able to survive and look after myself, fed and clean and such, assuming I had the financial resources to cover the cost of living. Don't know how well I'd do with work added. Still room to hope I would manage that too.

Today's the day my mother and her husband left on their long vacation in Europe. Since I have never yet been able to afford a place of my own this is I think the first time I've had an opportunity to direct my own life without anyone else looming over me.

[due to slowness of writing, all todays are now yesterdays]

Today was filled with expectations contrary to my expectations. What I expected was a brief morning visit to the offices where my case manager, who handles me so Centrelink doesn't much have to, then to return home and participate in clearing out a dungeon in World of Warcraft, followed by an evening of composing an application for the latest library job I found going.

Late post this, wanted to write it most of a week ago, about the previous week and a bit, but that last writing post took too long. Anyway, that was a big week. Don't know how much I can remember to write about now, but the determination is to try.